evolution

Tuesday, January 13, 2015


While I was busy thinking I was lost, an evolution occurred...my evolution.  I was looking for direction, answers...a path.  Little did I know that I was already well on my way down a path.  When I stopped to pause and take a look I realized that I had evolved.  I am ready to let go of all that used to be.  Although I have been the first to admit that everything changes, I have held myself back...clinging on to old identities, roles, habits, and dreams.  

I have discovered that I actually like to write.  I have remembered what it's like to be bold.  I no longer have a need to cling to the past.  Without realizing it we keep ourselves from moving forward.  I can see now that I was doing this to myself.

This blog is evolving with me.  I want to write and share more.  I have a desire to document, acknowledge, and celebrate daily life more even if it's short bits of rambling.  I'm all some rambling and short streams of consciousness.  I am taking 13 hours this semester, none of those online.  Yep, I'm a real live student in class with people half my age.  Strangely, I am loving it.  I am finally getting the proper college experience- my way.  I've always done things the hard way, not really the hard way, but in a way that is more challenging than others.  I'm not sure what lesson I am supposed to get by making things difficult but that's the way things seem to go.  So, I'm a college student, mom to two awesome kiddos, and a business owner.  Perhaps all of this is an attempt to fulfill a need to connect.  I don't get out much nor do I see or talk to friends as much as I would like.  Whatever the reasons, it is what it is.

I am reworking so many aspects of my life.  Purging, reworking, rethinking...awakening.  The desire to complete the metamorphosis is strong.  I'm ready to own my life; to make it what I want.  Hope you enjoy being a part of my process.

If you know me at all, you know that music is really important to me.  I need to have something playing just about all the time.  I'm thinking I will leave you with some sort of musical selection.

For today's listening pleasure:



See you all soon...

4 comments:

  1. Good Luck Carrie! I also did not have the "real" college experience. I mean, I did, but I was working full-time and helping raise my nephew so no frat parties or tailgates - although I don't think you'll get that either! But enjoy the learning and the people. I also work from home and sometimes miss the human element (only sometimes!). I miss Stamp Antonio's Tuesday afternoon classes/social - I need to find a new group!
    And I love the song - very appropriate for your post!
    Stay warm... c

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    1. oh thanks friend! Haha, could you imagine me at a frat party? I can't! I do like being a part of the college community. I've hidden in the back for so long. I'm learning how to be bold and participate! I miss creating with a group too. Trying to figure out how to make that happen. Glad you like the song!

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  2. I am so, so proud of you! You are one of the strongest women I know and I can't wait to see where your path leads you. Where ever it is, I know it's going to be spectacular. You are always in my thoughts, sending you lots of love, blessings and good vibes. <3

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